Me vs Me ?

after all those years ... now I've started to practice my religion . I wasted too many time . what have I done ? This early morning , after I pray , this is the first time I cried ( more to grieving actually ) when I read the Qur'an . Then I realize . He ( Allah the Almighty ) had given me too many precious things . Since I was born till now . But the , I only realize now ? I'm 17 year already , but still , I missed my solat , my du'as , even reading the Holy Al-Qur'an .

I still remember a surah that I read this morning . ( Sorry my english aren't so well )

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha pengasihani ,

see... only the meaning of Basmallah , I can only remember . Pity me ..
But , this is a start , I will take actions to what I will do . May Allah protect my aqidah .
amin .