the killing in the waiting !

Assalamualaikum ,

waiting can kill us silently . I don't lie . Well , this started when the mrsm kids got a fast track calling from the university . Such a ngaps .. to tell . Maybe it is their fortune to get into the Uni early but still I want it too.. the nature of me since I was a baby is learning .

Yes , I know when everybody says that we'll learn something each day .. true soo much .

but , seriously I want a formal learning .

I miss the environment for rushing to finish and done our research on our subjects .. miss hanging around with my friend ( especially Wan - miss you mucho girl ) . Miss the canteen foods ( though it does not taste scrumpty ) . Miss the library . Miss the teachers'/sirs' . Miss the EXTRA CLASSES ( which it almost held for nearly every day for a month ! ) . Miss the HOMEWORKS ..etc..etc ( the list of missing continues )

yada..yada...

And here I am staying at the house , making stacks of fats and weights .. ugh.. can't stand it .

I STAY WITH MY NANA . I have to understand her . She needs to know everything .. quite annoying ... but... there's a BUT . She kept me busy and forget all the boring things .. Thank you sooo mucho Nana . :) I Love You .

well here's the thing . I can't stand my house any more ! Why ? I do the same thing everyday , Chores , eating and sleeping . I fed up with those things . Yes , my weight have come to a quite serious level . but what can I do ?? They ( the feeling-less people ) would probably say .. " ouch , you've grown again??" ... ( eyes rolling ) what do they know ?

*sigh* Rational Husna .. , Allah hates people to give up .

May Be there is something I don't know :)

My fate is stated alredy at Loh Mahfuz.. but still I will make sure my effort change the bad fate stated to me .. ( if not all it must be at least right :) )

lets pray together :)

Wa'alaikumsalam