Haters

Assalamualaikum , 
dear haters . ( gaya banyak je followers aku kan ) 

by the way let's continue .After living in this dahsyat-havoc-happening-lovely world for nearly 2 decade , Allah swt had given me a gift ( to me , that's what I think ) to read people from their words , expression , voice tone , action and more . Alhamdulilah . 

HOW SO ?

Well , I can see people even though I might be wrong but at times I was right . haha . Frankly , I'm not the person who people hope for . I can feel , sees n hear when ever people hates me . Way back then , I always wonder why I am like this ? I said to myself that I am just being way too sensitive . Really ?

NOPE . NOT AT ALL .


It's because of who am I . I act differently towards every people . You see , when I was a little girl , I used to have friend-conflict . Girls hate me . I don't know why . If I went back to the past , most of my friend were boys . Most of them . I'm a lone ranger most of the time . yeah , sampai sekarang pun haha . I did try to find the cause , but there is no answer to it . I was left with unsettled answer .

but , Alhamdulilah , I grow up to be something that I didn't expect to be . My sister said that I'm strong to go against outside people . Am I ? She add that I can ignore all bad thing that people said , do to me . I was like " okay , fullstop . Spacebar " . " No , I'm not that strong " :) If it wasn't for HIM , I will never became like this ( and of course a few help from others ) . I force myself to understand even though I don't .


Being me is not easy . Can you imagine the rejects that I've been through since I was 5 ? Nobody wants to play with me , nobody understand me , nobody accepts me who I am . I've tried to let them know me , showing my best to becoming a person , sadly , nobody realize it . I was betrayed , being used and treated like a doll . My mom always ask me , " where is your friend ? " . I never replied once , not till I met THEM . :')

Allah wants me to be strong , so HE gave me this type of test . HE wants me to remember HIM always , and I did . I forced myself to be mature inside than the outside  haha ( except my face , kay . muka matang terlebih ) why I can still laugh ? because I have my family . I have HIM . that is what makes me stay alive till now . Children can be cruel . do make them behave nicely towards others . In Malaysia this problem is not that serious , but , out there , it is .

to wrap up from everything that I've said , haters be gone , you're not gonna affect me at all . I've been through this a lot . So , shooo , be gone . hahaha XD

wasalam .




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KB

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