Need MORE PATIENCE

Assalam..
PATIENCE

NEED MORE PATIENCE

I NEED MORE PATIENCE THAN EVER..

i know it isn't me they hoping for.. but why me... why me...
i don't even want this ... i won't say .. that i regret and i won't say that i didn't ask to born in this world...
Because i did say to HIM.., Allah .. i want to be their daughter..but now i'm suffering..
NO... they didn't hurt me.. just something that make me say 'it'..
I LOVE them SOO MUCH..
but can't they tell??? I don't know how to show how i feel ... no i don't ..
now i know.. they misunderstand 'bout my feeling ...

What's wrong with my heart'
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..

i feel like a damsel in distress
haha..
i just need a support..
no.. no money .. but LOVE..
i don't know whether HE still love me.. it is because .. i always forget 'bout HIM.. ( sometimes )

i know they hate me.. do i really need to go ??
away from them..
so they will be happy..
i did saw how they gonna be without me..
they seem so HAPPY..

I need a clue .. i do really need it..
if YOU hear me.. please send me anything that can make me theirs.. forever..
PLEASE..

I JUST NEED AN ETERNAL HAPPINESS...